Tuesday, June 06, 2006
life's been pretty rough.. its not easy staying strong sumtimes..
death is unevitable.. tats for sure.. as much as one can prepare himself or herself to lose a person, wen it actually happens, all preparation juz doesnt seem to help or werk.. nuthing.. all walls of strength juz collapsed.. especially wen u lose sumone u treasure n luv so much.. n worse wen u lose an uncle 3 weeks after the death of ur grandmother... (sori vy i cudnt go for ur bro's wedding)..
10 months passed.. she suffered so much pain.. but she kept quiet.. she keep it all in n prayed.. she knew death was coming for her.. but she faced it well.. her patience for all the pain.. haiz.. grew thinner n thinner.. eat lesser n lesser.. n a certain morning i received a call.. tat my grandma has lost consciousness.. rushed der.. on the wae.. i cud still hold myself calmly.. weried yet brave.. but once i reached n sat by her side.. the tears cudnt stop.. it flowed n flowed.. every min was dreadful.. she cudnt see us.. but i hope she cud hear.. as the few min ticked by, i held her and n massage her head.. i was rite bside her.. she finally cud sae some prayers.. i was already crying badly.. n she took a deep breath n laid there still.. n shes gone.. my grandma was gone.. :_(
even so.. i still feel her.. sumdaes i look forward to sat still to visit her.. but a min later i remembered.. shes in my heart n mind n dreams.. haiz.. it seems sumtimes so unreal..
n last week, my uncle died too..
at dis stage i juz wanna b ard my frens hu cares bt wad i feel n my happiness.. i dont gif a shit bt pple hu find faults wif me n haf petty issues wif me.. cos i dont gif a shit k..
*its not easy being me*
♥ my tales
8:25:00 PM
